A gift from me to me

This week I bought myself new shoes.

I was halfway through writing a post about how I normally don't buy things that I'm not in acute need of, about that splurging is bad, but it was such a long time ago I bought dressier shoes etc etc, when I suddenly realized that this is the old me writing. The old me trying to justify her doing something for herself, trying to explain to the world why she is worthy. But that's all in the past. I've been set free from that.

Consider the passage from Mark 12:31 "Love your neighbor as yourself".

God has revealed to me the flipside of this verse. If I don't love myself, it is impossible for me to love others. In order to be able to take care of others - my family, my friends, even strangers - I have to take care of myself. If I want to be a  generous person, I also have to treat myself in this way.

And I do want to be a loving, caring, generous person.

Since God has loved me first, I know how to love. And if God loves me, why wouldn't I love me?


So this is the new me writing:

This week I bought myself new shoes. They're deliciously red with high heels. And I look stunning in them.